Nothing without Him

This is an excerpt from an email I wrote to a friend recently who asked "how I was doing".
I have finished my first quarter as a teacher and it has been incredibly challenging in many ways. I am looking to Jesus to hold me up and lead me on and truly can say that I have nothing without Him. Thanks for reading, may the Lord bless you as you seek Him and walk in His ways, He is faithful. With love and prayers for you, Jen


I spend an average of 14-16 hours a day working and if I didn't have to sleep and eat I would work more. I am teaching 4 subjects, I was hired a week before school started handed some books and somehow I'm supposed to know more than the kids and be able to help them understand things I'm not sure I understand myself. It is the most humbling, exhausting, and lonely experience. I am surrounded by people (granted they are between the ages of 12 to 15) and I have never felt more alone or unsure of myself.

I do believe that God opened this door and I do know that this along with every other trial He has me in or has brought me through, keeps me on my knees at every second and draws me closer to Him and that's where I want to be. I am His and my life is meant to be spent for Him and in pursuit of knowing Him more. I have been reminded of so many of His servants who were "set apart" to a time alone, whether it be Elijah or David, or John or so many others, it has been said that we are never less alone than when we are alone and I know that He is with me and He is working.

If you think to pray for me, pray that I will joyfully submit to what God is doing in my life, there is something in my heart that has to be worked out and its been a bit of an uphill battle. But, He is faithful and He is working. This new ministry is all a part of what He is doing, and I am thankful. He is such a loving and persistent God, it is so humbling.

Looking to Him and holding on as He holds me