One Step at a Time

I have such a hard time with this. A situation arises and I think of every "what if" for the next five years. I get so far ahead of myself that I completely freak myself out and give up on things entirely because they have the potential to not turn out the way I hope they will.

And I'm praying and asking the Lord for help and telling Him I'm anxious and I hear, "So what?... What if the end result isn't what you think it will be? Will it change who I am? Will it change our relationship? Will I cease to be God? Will I cease to be good? Will I not be with you no matter what?"

Deep breath. Eyes shut tight. Hands open. I shake my head. "No Lord. You will never leave me nor forsake me. You will withhold no good thing, you are God and you are good, I can trust you."

And it's not that He's distant or doesn't care about the things that concern my heart, big and small, but that the end goal isn't all these things that keep me up at night...the end goal is Him.

His mercies are new every morning. I have been given the grace for today, the grace for this step. He will meet me at the next one with all that I need, I can trust Him.

So I'm learning to take steps, one at a time, with more concern about who is holding my hand as I climb then where we'll end up. Staying in the moment. Looking for God's heart, the stroke of his paintbrush, the faithful sting of his scalpel as He takes me forward, one step at a time.

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase" Martin Luther King Jr.