To know Him

I've been having a really hard time lately... just struggling to do anything.
I was reading through my journal this morning and basically everything I feel today I had written four months ago, the Lord is doing a great work in my heart and it is not a quick process.
There is much to be said in the Bible for the Christian regarding suffering, seems to be a guarantee. Yet it's not just something we endure because well Jesus died for us so it's the least we can do, rather it's a privilege, a gift, a time in which we can rejoice that the God of the universe is interested in having intimate fellowship with us and that He will go to to great lengths to draw us in. The Lord wants to know us and to be known by us, part of knowing Him is knowing suffering. There is a sweetness about it, in experiencing His grace as never before, in knowing His forgiveness...

I wrote the above about a week ago intending to finish it, unfortunately I became very ill and never got around to it. Yesterday, after a tiresome day with several doctors I was diagnosed with Pneumonia. Now, I sit in my apartment, where I shall spend the next several weeks experiencing just what I had written above. Though I am weak and in pain I am confident that God has a purpose in this time, set apart for just me and Him. In the midst of my wild fevers God gave me a verse, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

You see it's not in all the things I do really that He is glorified but rather it is when I am weakest, when I have no abilities, no answers, no quick fixes that He is shown as strong. May God be glorified in all things.

I would very much appreciate your prayers during this time, not only for my physical health (pray for my roommate Keely too, she also has pneumonia!) but that I will grow in the knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ during this time.

God bless you!